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Sunday, December 04, 2005

Moving Forward

Well, I've taken the past week and done a lot of reflection.

Things I've come across:

1) I realised that from Friday last week to mid Sunday I missed all my medication. That's a significant loss of drugs for me. It has affected my judgment big time for then, and the remainder of the week.

2) My pdoc screwed up. Again. I realised last night that my most recent prescription was filled differently. Some might remember that he recently increased my Seroquel, an antipsychotic. It helps keep my thoughts straight, and lowers the incidence of delusion and paranoia. He had increased it in two steps (it's called titrating the dosage) from 400 mg to 500 mg to 600 mg per day. Well, he filled my prescription in the intermediate dose, at 500 mg per day. That meant that the pills were filled in 100 mg. I've been used to taking the Seroquel in doses of 1 pill in the AM and two at night (if filled in 200 mg tablets, this works out to 600 mg per day). I noticed last night that the package read 1 and 4 pills, am and pm. Then I realised that I've been taking 1/2 the TRUE dosage all week (I've been taking 1 pill in the AM and 2 in the PM but since they're only 100 mg each, I've been shortchanging myself).

This screws me up even further.

3)I'm not sure if some of you are aware, but there are neat little hidden features on a lot of blogs, mine included, that let me see who is reading it. I have seen traffic coming in from Philippines, New Zealand, and here locally. It's been interesting to see who's reading.

4) I've made a decision:

I'm moving my thoughts and vents to another blog. I will keep this one up and running for some time, but won't add to it, to allow people to read this post and know where I've gone. I just feel that I need a new place, and a fresh start. I've been convinced that I need this outlet, and that it seems to help others as well.

Email me if you want the URL. I will provide it.

Take care all.


Blogger Dangerous Mind said...
Hope all is well Blondzilla!  

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